Well, this is my last night (now it's morning, but oh well) in Georgia, and I'm sitting here writing while Murray the cat licks (and bites) Kitty's hand. It has been an amazing adventure and I am truly grateful for the experience. I've made tasty food, eaten too much sugar (surprised?), shopped at thrift stores, toured downtown Athens, longed for a bed of my own, been angered by obsessive gossip, worried about what will happen after I move, worried about where I want my education to go, and wondered what the fuck is going on with my financial aid ad Davis.
Sounds like a lot?
I'm used to it. It's the way my brain works ;)
The last few days feel like a blur now. Maybe because I'm ready to get home, and am just enjoying the sensation of living and being adventurous. And my belief that everything I do and experience and learn creates the opportunity for a new lesson, or an expansion of myself has been firmly supported with this expedition.
It's not that I'm being overly optimistic. But I do think I have a choice as to how I respond to what situations I am dunked in. I can be a spoonful of vinegar, and make the drink bitter, I can be salt and make the drink harsh, I can be sugar and make it too sickeningly sweet and unrealistic, or I can be a spoonful of honey with a dash of cinnamon. Not too sweet and a satisfying edge to whatever comes my way.
I feel I've developed a healthy outlook upon myself, and am ready to get back to my yoga and healthy eating lifestyle. I'm ready to make new places for myself and create friendships with kindred spirits who add their own spices to life. I'm ready to make mistakes and not be ashamed of them. I'm ready to tackle new challenges, be they physical, intellectual, or emotional. I'm ready to continue to let go and explore with a sense of curiosity that I'm sure is at the core of who I am.
Good night, friends, and good luck, though I don't think you'll need it!
1 comment:
As always Bebe, you evoke an amazing wisdom and insight with your words. I am in awe of you and know that My Best Girl is of a Spirit beyond comprehension.
You will forgive me my tears of love and wonder as you begin your new adventurous solo flight into the universe.
Go with my everlasting love and blessing,
Maman
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